It all started with a thought seeing a guy from a distance and thought that he is handsome, Not even a second after that I just brushed away my thoughts thinking that I can't like a guy , My mom won't approve my love, I will be disowned , Everyone will laugh at me and pass on weird names .
I've tried to keep all these to myself and thought I am the only one like this in the whole world and cursed god a lot of times.
The confusion , Frustration , hatred towards my self was too much to handle at the age of 8 years.
I only used to play with my girl cousins at home. I never liked cricket or football.
My parents gave me everything I want and we being not so rich my dad gave all the comforts we required.
I was always lost in my own world , kissing a TV actor when ever he comes on Television , thinking that he will come to me and marry me and make him his spouse.
I was very innocent , I didn't know what sex was until my 10th standard.
I realized after a long that I was being molested by my elder cousin.
I didn't know what to do , whom to ask , I used to sit on my terrace and cry for hours not understanding what to do.
I ran away from my classmates because everyone used to call me names because I'm Feminine and only one whom I can hug and sleep whenever I feel lonely and lost was my mom , but I've never had courage to tell what I feel and explain her what I'm worried about.
I've spent 18 years not knowing what I'm and why I'm DIFFERENT from others.................
I've tried to keep all these to myself and thought I am the only one like this in the whole world and cursed god a lot of times.
The confusion , Frustration , hatred towards my self was too much to handle at the age of 8 years.
I only used to play with my girl cousins at home. I never liked cricket or football.
My parents gave me everything I want and we being not so rich my dad gave all the comforts we required.
I was always lost in my own world , kissing a TV actor when ever he comes on Television , thinking that he will come to me and marry me and make him his spouse.
I was very innocent , I didn't know what sex was until my 10th standard.
I realized after a long that I was being molested by my elder cousin.
I didn't know what to do , whom to ask , I used to sit on my terrace and cry for hours not understanding what to do.
I ran away from my classmates because everyone used to call me names because I'm Feminine and only one whom I can hug and sleep whenever I feel lonely and lost was my mom , but I've never had courage to tell what I feel and explain her what I'm worried about.
I've spent 18 years not knowing what I'm and why I'm DIFFERENT from others.................
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